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I know perfectly well that intense body contact can easily result in a crush on somebody. I already experienced this four times in yunity alone, but I chose to reflect those feelings, strip them of all expectations, demands and assumptions and just enjoy the fluttery feeling and the enhanced intensity of lamâsching in that state. That works for me because I see it as a nice high that will vanish after some time, just to be replaced by a new one. Hedonism at it's best... ;) (Update: Okay that didn't work after all... I did fall in love and got infected by the poly-virus, when my crush became someone, who mirrored my feelings. One should be careful after all with these things...)
But I know, that I am in a very comfortable place to say things like this. I'm not looking for a person to amorously commit to because I already have one. So I can enjoy the appreciation without depending too much on it. And in nights in which I don't succeed in placing myself near my current favorite I don't feel disappointed for long and rather embrace another human being that is almost as lovely to me.
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